I think I am enchanted. Because I am not in love. In love? It's such a mature statement. I don't love him. I am just head over heels for him. Because what do I really know about the love between man and woman? I can only be sure of my love for family and friends. I wish I'd known more about it but I don't.
And nobody can really tell me, that's the most irritating.

The problem is that I always find someone who seems to already like someone else. It's semper like that (ha, at least I didn't waste my latin lessonsXD). And it's a lot more, I think he's the only good-looking guy on our year. He attended the secondary school the same name's and all secondary school is in love with him (ah, the in love phrase!). Plus my year. And me.
Haha. I am so senseless. I think it's just easier for me to be attracted to someone who is unreachable. I don't have to do anything to make him to notice me. Well, he does because we were attending to the same primary school for two years - to be frank I was so shocked when I saw that we're at the same High School! I never gave a second thought to him. I just was convinced that we won't meet ever again and here it goes. He is so handsome and ambitious. And intelligent and with such passion for what he worships! He wants to be rock-opera director and plays several musical instruments.
Ha, the only thing that connects us is that we both like theatre, operas (I am not so sure 'bout ballets, however myself I love them^^) and we both play piano. Plus he plays some other instruments.
My Rock-Opera Director in spe. likes F. I am very unfair to her. Why am I so thick-skinned when it comes to her?! I shouldn't be jealous but I am. F. is very liked by boys. To be frank I think she's damn pretty. She has disadvantages though. Like she is too straight-forward when it comes to intimate matters. Maybe boys like it. However I won't change my uneasiness with it even if boys find it really interesting.
I asked my stepfather and brother about that thing and they said that it's just easier with that type of a girl. Maybe. She flirts with every boy and has one specific boy around her finger. I pity him because I prefer him than the girl. He's so nice and really cool. And it doesn't feel right when she talks to him and he's just so happy to talk to her and then she turns around to other boy. I mean, it's okay to play, have fun. But why does she have to hurt him? I mean, L. is so kind, so clever, so fun to be with and good-looking? I wouldn't have enough bravery to be like her.

Haha, she has fat thighs.
That's the only thing I could find to ease my anger.
But I shouldn't have.
I like to explain it to myself that it's only because she hurts L.
I know he really likes her. If they got together I won't ever disturb. However, my friends and I made a vow. We won't let her to hurt him.

PS she really is wider than I am. But what do I have if boys still like her better?!